The internet is both my greatest friend and my greatest foe. I find myself spending entirely too much time researching my “condition.” Including, researching the odds and symptoms of miscarriage (no, I have no reason to believe that this is going on, but I am really nervous about it). The average risk of miscarriage is 15-20% depending on the source, but that statistic includes mothers of all ages. Today I found a source that broke it down by decade (20′s, 30′s and 40′s). According to their data, women in their 20′s have a 10% risk of miscarriage and about half of those happen before the 5th week is completed. So, since I am in the middle of my sixth week, according to their data, I only have a 5% chance of losing this one. Finally, a source that reassures me and makes me feel better/less nervous. Perhaps I should stop looking now, before I find anything that contradicts that information and makes me nervous again.

We have been trying to relax a bit and rejoice in this pregnancy. I don’t want to deliver in March only to realize that I spent the whole time worrying and not enjoying the experience of being pregnant. A few days ago we spent some time brainstorming names. No, we won’t be sharing names with ANYONE until the baby is born, but we did find one boy name that we both agreed on. Wonder if ti will stick until March? For now, it is still MB.

I am now in the middle of my sixth week of pregnancy and I still can’t quite believe it. As we walked to the train station yesterday, I actually suggested to my husband that perhaps I should take another pregnancy test. After all, its been almost a week since I took the last one. Maybe we should check again?

He as usual, talked me down from my craziness and reminded me that if I become un-pregnant there will probably be a pretty obvious sign (bleeding). He’s right, of course, but I can’t help worrying.

Signs that I’m Still Pregnant

Boobs – Tender, Different Consistency and Larger
Nausea – When it is here, I feel terrible. When it is gone, I worry. I can’t win!
Food Aversions – Aside from cucumbers, apparently I don’t really like melon right now. Took one bite this morning and spit it right back out. Hate anything that is sweet (can’t stand ice cream, chocolate, cookies, anything)!
Cravings – Hard Boiled Eggs. The only food that consistently tastes good. I have eaten more hard boiled eggs in the past week than I have in the past two years. (I figure, they have everything necessary for a baby chicken, why not a baby human?)
Period – Still missing.
Fatigue – Definitely. Love the naps!
Bloating and Constipation – Fun! Fun!

So, yeah, everything seems to show that I am still pregnant. I am not sure that I will believe it until the baby pops out!

Aaron found this comic while we were in the “trying to conceive” stage. It made us both smile then, and now that I am actually pregnant, it makes us smile even more.