Last night was not a good night. Now, I know I can’t blame EVERYTHING on the pregnancy. And I know bad dreams happen even when people are not pregnant. But I can’t help but feel that they happen more now and that they are more vivid than my dreams have ever been before.

Last night I didn’t have just one bad dream, I had two. It was enough to make me sleep horribly for the entire night. And now, shortly after noon, I just feel tired. I feel crabby and I can’t wait to get to bed again tonight, hopefully without the dreaming.

I don’t know if it is even worthwhile to talk about the content of the dreams, at least I don’t want to too specifically. The first bad dream had to do with my relationship with my husband. The second involved a bad turn of events with the baby. I feel like I have been mostly calm about both of these things recently. I am starting to feel more settled as a pregnant woman, a pregnant wife and a future mother.

I truly believe that I am not worrying as much, but is my subconcious doing more worrying than I know about? How can I make it stop? I really can’t handle waking up already feeling like a mental and emotional wreck, falling into the loving arms of my husband crying only moments after we both wake up, and wanting the day to be over shortly after it has begun. Yuck!