Today is a day that makes me feel like I should go out and buy just ONE more home pregnancy test. I know! Crazy!

At 16 weeks and 2 days, I know I am being ridiculous. I have 4 ultrasound photos that prove there is life growing inside of me. I have the round belly which expands more with every passing day, but yet, I doubt that it is even possible.

I have hit that mystical, magical second trimester. My nausea has gone away (completely). I have been vomit-free for more than two-weeks (excluding one incident where I vomited because someone else had vomited). I am able to stay up at night until a reasonable hour (9:30 or 10:00pm) and wake up at my normal time. The bedside snacks have disappeared. And many foods and drinks that I completely avoided, have started making a comeback. After nearly three months of getting used to my old pregnancy symptoms, I have found it sort of shocking that they have all but disappeared (totally knocking on wood!).

And now, in this moment, I really don’t feel pregnant. I am in this in-between stage. I am thankful to be relieved of all the troubles that plagued me in the first-trimester, but waiting, anxiously, for the reassurement yet to come. In a matter of a few weeks I should start feeling babies first movements. I think, last night, I may have felt something, but it might also totally be in my head. I would imagine that once I start feeling those tiny little kicks regularly I will feel without-a-doubt pregnant. Until then, the pregnancy is just sort of this mystical thing. Something that I know, in my mind and heart, is happening but I just can’t feel it. How can my body be growing a human without me really noticing?